I keep thinking that my first post back in too long has to be some monumental, inspirational post.
Truth is, this is the first time in months I’ve been able to sit down, look out the window, consider life and just exist without having 15 other commitments. I don’t have to go anywhere. I don’t have to look a certain way. I don’t need to rush out the door. And it freaks me out.
I’ve decided that this summer will be one of learning.
And I’ve already learned so much.
With new experiences come the memories of old ones. Old feelings, old emotions, old mistakes.
With new experiences come more opportunities for God to work. New people to spread His word to, new challenges to face with Him working within me, new instances where I’ll need Him above anyone else.
From now, I’d like to document what I’ve learned, what I haven’t, what I’ve realized about my past and what I look forward to.
A great friend of mine, through her walk with Christ and the way she experiences life, has taught me to truly take time for myself, for God and for others. . .
That one more minute could make a difference
That I have to be healthy and love myself before loving others
That getting to know things about others is a great joy in life
That God is working within me every single minute
That I can truly bless people’s lives.
Thank you, and
1 I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, entreat you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which you have been called, 2 with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing forbearance to one another in love, 3 being diligent to preserve the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as also you were called in one hope of your calling; 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism, 6 one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and in all. – Ephesians 4:1-6
Give people the opportunity to surprise you.
Expect it, but don’t wait for it. Prepare for it, but don’t plan it.
Don’t tell people how to do things, tell them what to do and let them surprise you with their results.
- George S. Patton
Be at peace and know that I am God.
Know that I have hung the stars in the sky perfectly.
Know that I called you before I created the world.
Know that every single hair on your head is numbered.
Know that I want to give you exceeding abundantly above all you ask of me.
Know that I am your perfect Heavenly Father.
Know that I love you.
Pray. Pray. Pray.
Converse, speak, ask, open, give, expect, anticipate, consider, learn, hear, praise, confide, honor. Pray.
It’s a conversation.
It’s a relationship.
It’s the way a Father is with His children.
And in this hour, when we may be torn between opinion and reality, we oftentimes take the ambiguous route, a combination of the two, in order to keep people smiling.
But also to keep them guessing.
Yet this behavior is just the truth masked in a lie, a perfectly wrapped, cube-shape present with a clean, crisp bow.
And in the next hour, when that cube is unwrapped and its contents revealed, the receiver’s smile shall be wiped away as fast as that clean, crisp bow became a stringy, shapeless ribbon crinkled on the ground.
And in every hour, the giver will consider this. And she will not be disappointed because that gift was merely the truth.
The truth of many that the receiver of one could not bear to see.
I heard … that you’re settled down. That you found a girl and you’re married now.
I pray that this isn’t true because I gave you things … no one can give to you
Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain’t like you to ignore and hide in denial
I hate to turn up out the blue uninvited, but I … couldn’t stay away, I could hide it.
I … hope you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded that we had plans … And you broke them…